You know those people who are able to do whatever they want without a second thought?
Yeah, I’m not one of those people.
I always always second guess everything.
I feel guilty about not staying within the lines.
If I do something that isn’t okay by someone else’s opinion, I feel horrible about it.
This was definitely worse when I was younger. I definitely judged myself through everyone else’s eyes and opinions.
After a certain point, I realized that I couldn’t live my life according to everyone else. And while most of the time, I can be okay with whatever happens, there are times when I overthink everything. I start analyzing and overanalyzing and eventually, arrive at the conclusion that everyone doesn’t like me or something I did.
So I guess my point is that sometimes, I wish I was one of those people who could just turn my brain off and experience life without worrying so much.