Today, I was really missing dancing and performing. I’ve spent a good part over the last 16 years dancing on various teams and in shows. It’s definitely slowed down since I had my first kid. I have had a few opportunities to dance in between being pregnant and having baby #1 and baby #2 but it’s not as frequently as I would like.
I posted on Facebook about this longing I had for dance and a few opportunities popped up. I’m really excited to get started and do this.
But I can’t just jump into things the way I used to.
I have to remember that my first responsibility is my family. My kids’ lives and needs come first. They have their schedules that are more important that anything else.
So how does it work if my needs come second?
Somehow, I have to manage balancing my responsibilities with chasing my passions. I know I could just ignore my own needs and concentrate on my kids but if I did that, then I wouldn’t be giving them my best self. The only answer to this is to find a way to do both.
I find sections of my day to focus on the things I do for me. I wake up early to write (or write during a movie that I’m watching with my kid like I’m doing now). I work out during nap times. In order to be able to dance, I need the support of my husband.
He’s a great guy and we both believe in allowing space so that the other is able to do the things that will make us happy. We believe that if we are happy, our kids will be happy. So I have the ability to dance while my husband handles our responsibilities.
It isn’t easy to be able to chase your passions while being a mom. But if I want it bad enough, I’ll find a way to do it.